Yes, I was abused as a child- physically, and emotionally- definitely psychologically... I was actually taken out of her custody when I was 12 after three attempts to run away because I was too scared to come home. Although, she had me believing for years that she was allowing me to live with my grandparents when in reality I was not allowed to be returned to her custody. I've discovered a lot as an adult. I also remember a lot of things, too. I am wondering what is wrong with her? What mental illness might characterize her given some things I have listed below?
Here are some things that she did to me:
1. When i was 5 she screamed at me to get away from her when i tried to hug her once when she was crying.
2. When my father tried to visit us when he came home from trucking school she wouldn't allow him to see us because she was angry at him.
3. When we she started school she left us with some weird lady that lived above us and then had us stay with our grandmother (who she hated) and would pick us up at 1 or 2 in the morning- bring us home so that we could lay back down and get back up for school the next day.
4. she put us in different schools and we changed schools nearly once a year and ended up at every single school in the county and even in one out of state. As the years went on and we both struggled in school- instead of blaming the changing of school in the middle of the year nearly every year- she said we had ADD- and refused to pay for tutoring.
5. she let my dad take us to Oklahoma city to live in the projects where we were the only white children in our neighborhood and school and were beat up a lot- for 6 months and we were put in school and then without warning our Uncle came to pick us up and of course we had to change schools again.
6. she married a guy and had us living in an apartment in Nashville TN where no children were allowed and we had to stay inside all the time.
7. she then told me and my sister that we had to walk nearly two miles to a bus stop (that didn't exist) when i was 8 and my sister was 6.
8. then she had me walk to another bus stop while my sister was taken to school i had to walk an extra mile to a different bus stop that was on a very busy intersection by myself at 8 years old.
9. We weren't allowed to go to anyone else's house when asked.
10. We weren't allowed to have friends over- the few times we did, she embarrassed us so badly that we didn't want people to come over because she degraded us and talked down to us so much.
11. she made me stay up when I was 9 all night and write 1000 xs- i will not wear inappropriate clothing to school and when I fell asleep- she came in the dining room and through me out of my chair and through me across the room and my step dad had to pull her of of me.
12. she punched me in the face and made me lay in bed all day.
13. she pulled my pants down in front of my step dad when I was old enough to have breasts and pubic hair and spanked me in front of him.
14. she told me she hated me on my 11th birthday. she told me that she hated me when i was 9 too.
15. When I told her I wanted to try out for the glee club, she made me sing in front her first- which made me very nervous, and so my voice was shaking and she told me I couldn't sing and she wasn't going to waste the money on me so I couldn't try out. ( I later became a singer songwriter and won some local awards)
16. she made us clean the entire house every Saturday without her help by the time we were 8 years old. if we made a mistake we could get spanked with a belt (sometimes with the buckle) which left bruises. she would occasionally make my step dad spank us when he got home, too.
17. she would get us up out of bed and spank us together or separate- without warning.
18. she threatened to burn my sisters hand on the stove if she told the counselor at school that she was abused after they took me out of the home....
19. When I was older- when my dad died, she wouldn't let us attend the funeral because she said that it would upset some of the other guest there.
20. When I was 17/18 she asked for us all three- her my sister and I to try living together again and split the bills- she lured us in with the possibility of living in a nice house. she didn't pay for her share- My sister and I split the bills and paid with the SSI money awarded to us from our dad's death... When I asked to go over the bills with her- she made an appt with me to do so- then when I showed up she refused to do it.
21. she told me if I didn't give her my car then I would have to buy her one since I had offered to give her a car once I got a new one- which I never did. I offered to sell it to her. When my sister made me some pottery in a class- my mom took it and wouldn't give it back.
22. she agreed to let my sister be on the swim team. After a week, my mom refused to take her to the 4 in the morning practice. she had
Hi 
First I would like to say how sorry I am for your messed up childhood--god bless you sweetheart--and answering your question, I would have to say it sounds a lot like Bipolar and depression. is she still acting this way? if so, you NEED to get an ambulance to her house as soon as possible, Bipolar is like skitsophrenia in one way; you never know/believe you have it. And it is extreamly dangerous to be around someone with it.
But first go and see your doctor and discuss it with them, I am only telling you from experiance and I am not a doctor.
best wishes
-Holly
Your mother seems to take some satisfaction in negatives--refusing things, controlling others.
This can be caused by resistance and loss of control in her childhood. I bet your mother was abused herself in many ways. It's really unfortunate. Ill-will is caused by resistance. Many of these things from her past must have built up in her mind, and she felt more at ease when she was controlling.
As for psychiatry:
( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b30iwhEw9… )
You can look up in the dsm if you want but it's pretty crappy.
Buddhism and roget's thesaurus are better alternatives for understanding the mind.
She may have Bipolar and needs to be checked out immediately. I am so sorry for your childhood and what she did was wrong. your mom may have something terribly wrong with her, because there is no possible way a sane mother would do something like that. I cannot say in words how sorry i am that has happened to you and i think it is a good thing that your helping her out when she barely ever helped you out. if you ever need anyone to talk to just message me.
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